*sigh*

So, this was our last chance at parenthood since we have no more refills of Clo.mid and we sure as hell aren't getting pregnant without help, that's for sure. Now all I have to look forward to is months of Adderall (sp?) to hopefully lose the extra weight. I don't even know that my doctor is going to prescribe me more Clo.mid when I go back to see him. He may just say "Nope, no more. Here's an RE's number."

Negative tests for approximately a week now, even though friggin Web.MD says I can't test until Monday. Bullshit. I've been doing this long enough now to know that I should have gotten a positive test (even a faint one) if I were even remotely pregnant. I don't even have any symptoms. Yet, no one seems to believe me when I say we just aren't going to ever be parents. They just keep feeding false hope. Good thing I know the truth or it could really screw with a girl.

So, as soon as AF decides to show her ugly ass face, this cycle will be over. And quite possibly, our whole TTC "career". Damn. That really sucks. I really thought higher powers would take pity on me and realize that this is my only chance left to be a mom for quite a while...or forever. Guess they don't care. Guess I'm not worth it. Guess I was right all along.

Shit. This feels pretty crappy.