I may have jumped the gun a bit

So, I woke up crabby yesterday as you can tell because my allergies were just about killing me, I thought AF was here (more on that in a minute), and I kept reading everyone's posts on Face.Book about Mother's Day. As the day went on though, I realized that things really weren't that bad.

I completely thought AF started. I have been spotting since Friday and I'm still spotting today but less than before. Not dark red, although sometimes pink. No cramps but I do have sore boobies. I'm not sure what my body is doing right now but I'm not thinking too much into it. Whatever it decides to do is fine by me. I'm not even going to worry about it. I have an appointment on the 25th with my OB and I'm going to ask him what the next steps are. Do I take more Clo.mid? Do I start IUIs? Do I have to go more drastic? Whatever it takes, I'm going to do. Enough is enough. I'm going to be proactive. If I'm not going to go get what I want, then I shouldn't be sitting around whining about it either. So instead, I'm going to go get what I want.

Back to yesterday...I got up at about 9 because DH didn't wake me up in time to go to breakfast before his soccer game. So, we got dressed and headed to soccer. Thankfully it was playoffs so we were only there for 30 minutes because they lost. Stinks for them, but good for me. We stopped and bought my mom some gorgeous purple hanging flowers and stopped to get strawberries and chocolate chips. I went home and made a red velvet cake with cream cheese frosting and...*drumroll please*...chocolate covered strawberries on top. Yummmm! My aunt, sister, and her boyfriend came over and the cake was literally devoured in 10 minutes. I knew I should have taken a picture of it before we ravaged it. It was pretty though and damn good, too. My mom had a great day and we all spent time together. Ultimately, it turned out to be a really nice day especially since it's the first really sunny day we've had in a week.

My husband got the mail that we had gotten on Saturday, but forgot to take out of the mailbox. My cousin in At.lant.a sent me a Mother's Day card. She's always been more like a sister than a cousin to me and knows what DH and I have been going through. She doesn't know it yet, but we've always said that if we are ever blessed with a child, we're going to ask her to be our first born's godmother. What she wrote in the card just validates why we want her to be the godmother:

"Even though you haven't yet been blessed with a child of your own, doesn't mean your day won't come. You will make an amazing mother someday and when you do, your child will be so lucky. And just because you don't yet see A (stepson) like you should, doesn't make you any less of a mother. You have so much love to give to a baby and I can't wait for your day to come. I hope you enjoy Mother's Day because this day is as much for you as it is for any other mom out there. I miss you and I'll see you soon."

I can't even type that without blinking through tears. When I opened the card and read that yesterday, I had to stop because I was literally sobbing. It was so heartfelt and touching and there was just no way I could have a bad day after reading that. I'm really glad I'm related to her because she's not only my cousin, she's my sister and one of my best friends. She's coming up here on the 22nd and I can't wait! I think we'll take her to lunch. :)

Needless to say, it was a really good day and a really good weekend. I dyed my hair again last night, LOL. Turns out deep burgundy *IS* darker than regular burgundy. So, it looks like I have the darkest color brownish red you can get before black...and I kinda like it. I swear I heard "I really like your hair that color" about 20 times today at work. I guess that's a good thing. Pictures to come soon, I promise.

Anyway, to make up for yesterday's "poor me" post...I just wanted to say a belated Happy Mother's Day to all the mom's who read here. Your children are so incredibly lucky to have you as their moms and I'm so incredibly lucky to call you friends. Your words, thoughts, and friendship mean more to me than you'll ever know or I'll ever be able to express. You all have a special place in my heart.

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