Someone please tell me how to give up. I mean truly, completely, give up on this stupid fight because I am SO done with all of it.
CD38, no BFP, no AF, and no end in sight.
I want the "want" for a family to go away once and for all. I'm serious. I don't want to think about children every day of my life and I don't want to be envious of every pregnant woman I see and I don't want to do this shit anymore.
"Surgery will help"....my ass. I may have believed it if my cycles were back to normal, whatever the hell that is. The fact is, I don't believe it. I don't believe we'll be pregnant by the end of this year, I don't believe anything can help me, and I don't believe I'll ever have a family.
I've wanted to be a mom all my life but unfortunately, I've also known I never will be...from the very start.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Someone
Posted by MrsDrink at 8:31 PM
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Oh hon. I wish I could help. I have no idea how to turn it off- I think that really truly is one of the most difficult things you can do. I don't know how I can help- but I am here for you. I have you in my prayers (and have for years)that you will get what you want and need. I know this disease (IF) is the biggest bastard of all. Too many wonderful and truly amazing people are unable to be the moms & dads they want to (and should) be.
I don't know the answers. But I am a good listener. If only hugs could really be felt through online forums- because you'd have a huge one from me right now.
<3
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