Thank you's and decision.

First off, thank you so much guys for your comments. I can't thank you enough and you don't know how much it warms my heart. You are all the absolute best and I'm so grateful to know you all. <3

I made a decision with DH today. I still feel like I don't really have the right to say I had a "baby" but you all made me feel better about that. So I thought of something today and discussed it with DH and he seems to like the idea.

We're going to name the baby.

I had a feeling from the moment I found out that it was a boy. So I wanted to name the baby so I didn't have to keep calling it just that...the baby. So we chose a name and not really because it meant anything but more because it's a name that kept popping in my head and I still have no idea why. I just went with it though and it seems to fit. DH likes it as well.

Adam Daniel.

Adam is the name that kept popping in my head all morning and Daniel is DH's name. I don't even know if Adam is one of my favorite names but it kept popping in my head all morning so I figured, what the hell. I think it helps with closure and I feel better already. Grandpa...keep Adam safe until I can be there, ok? :)



Oh, also, I'm pretty sure I'm O'ing already. Weird isn't it? I started AF on Friday and it was pretty heavy until Sunday morning. Then throughout Sunday and Monday, it tapered off and was gone by Monday night. Yesterday, I started having O cramps on both sides and now I have EWCM. Isn't that strange? Maybe it's my imagination. Oh and the nurse called on Tuesday to let me know that my numbers were back at zero and we're free to keep trying if we want. Which we will be doing but we're not using Clo.mid this cycle. I need a rest and I want to see if maybe I can O on my own. Probably not but it's worth a shot. Then next cycle, we'll pick up Clo.mid again if we're not already pregnant.

So, that's been my week in a nutshell. It could have gone worse I guess so I'm just happy for the little things in life. I'll be pregnant again...I don't know when but in my heart, I know I'll be pregnant again.

Thanks again everyone. You all have a special place in my heart. <3