I'm here, I'm fine,

Not that anyone cares. No Jenn, I know you do. I'm pretty sure you're the only one who cares but that's fine by me. :)

Actually things have been well, not bad. There have been a few hiccups lately but otherwise, I'm good. The little things that make me happy; AF stuck around for 5 and only 5 days and I have a completely normal 34 day cycle. Now I'm on a new one and tomorrow will be day 5 of Clomid again. It's my last refill before I have to call for more so keep your fingers crossed for me, won't you?

If not, I guess it'll be ok. I'm on a new medication to help me concentrate and it's also prescribed for weight loss. So, two birds, one large stone. Maybe once I'm back down to the weight I want to be, it'll just "happen" like it does to so many. Ya think? Yeah, probably not, lol. Anyway, the meds are complimenting the anxiety pills I'm on now pretty well and it almost helps me to calm right down. Almost immediately. Now I can see why the caution on the label says "risk of dependance: high". No worries, that's not me.

I know I shouldn't talk about it here but I feel I must. She knows this is how I feel since I just sent her an email saying so, LOL. I know this blog is a lot about "i hate pregnant women" this and "i hate pregnant women" that but I want her to know and everyone else to know, it's not directed at any of you. Am I completely and utterly jealous of her? Absolutely. Do I wish I was in her shoes right now? Completely. Do I hate her because she has what I want so badly? Never. I love her and I wish she'd tell me what I did wrong so that I can apologize and explain that it was never my intention. But, maybe I just did. I hate the distance between us. <3 You know who you are.

Well, I'm gonna go curl up next to my wonderful husband and go to sleep happy. It hasn't happened in a long time so I'm going to take full advantage of it. Happy...hmm. What a concept. I think I like it. :)